Heavenly birthday wishes

Jay, today would have been your half century birthday & you are so terribly missed. 

What an incredible man that I got to call my brother-in-law for all the years that I did. And although I was no longer married into your family, you still welcomed me as such and it was great to see you when I did. You were an amazing husband, father, son, brother, Uncle and friend who made everyone smile and laugh in your presence. I miss you dearly. 

"If you have love in your heart, let it show." He had so much love in his. 

Cheers to the sky for you tonight, Jay.

 

A couple of days off

It was a lovely busy couple of days. And then I got a little less intrigued with writing. 

My cousin got married. I'm very happy for them.

Yesterday was a day of rest & recuperation.

It's a rainy gloomy day that makes me just want to lounge even though I've got things to get accomplished today. We'll see how much gets done. Caffeine might help. 

Soul quenching day

As I lay my sun kissed (and a little crispy in spots) body down for the evening, I'm feeling so fulfilled along with wiped out from the day in the sun at the beach!

It was such a lovely day filled with delicious food, beverages, breezes, sand and salty water with incredible waves.

I'll just leave the post with pictures from the day to sum up the awesomeness.

Take it all in

Enjoy a simple breeze & contemplate everything.

That's how I'm intending to spend this little moment in time.

The rotation of emotions that can come & go filter in from one moment to the next.

Sometimes all I need is a good belly laugh that makes me snort. Then I listen to some lyrics that hit me differently then I had ever noticed before to make me cry one of those intense bawl to release it all. After then, I pick myself back up, make a good chai along with a delicious meal to head out to just sit.

The routine of sitting out is one that I'm so grateful to continue with. Just to be in this moment. 

The little things can be so big

Sitting here pondering thoughts while I caffeinate my mind.

It's crazy how quickly things that seemed so concrete & sure can just change in the tip of a hat. This week is one of those memory inducing, needing to rewrite the script so that I don't go back to the weepy moments. But I can't help but have the twinges of sadness seeing photos appear. I do want to change the narrative of how this week is for the future though & attempt to flip the switch to make it less about what was & the awesome that has yet to come. 

I am focusing on me & making the best version that can be both mentally & physically. Still a work in progress but one that I'm happy to have. A shift into a vibe that I'm really enjoying illuminating out into the world. 

Morning recharge

 

Each morning since the heatwave finally broke & it's now not hot as balls outside, I've made a caffeinated beverage & sat out soaking in the sun. It's been really rejuvenating to begin the day this way. I'll keep up the routine of this as it's really made a change in how the rest of the day is. It's been really nice just sitting in the moment & taking it all in. 

Missed a day, that's ok. I'm a proud band mama

I was on a roll of each day posting... 

The day got away from me yesterday & it almost did today as well. I think I was sidetracked & then it was time for the show. So I'm behind a day in it. 

It's always so great getting to see Eleanor & the Pretty Things play, especially when it's their home turf of their usual spot. Alchemy is in an even better building now, saying goodbye to the one with all those stairs is not missed by anyone but I know especially the bands having to lug up all their stuff up & down those damn stairs.

To ease in to this being the bass players first ever gig, they did their set in the basement before the show. It was nice getting to have a dance party in the living room before the show. 

My bestie & I got into the car & headed to the show. We got there so early, which is a first for us. The nice thing about being the band mom is that I know when their set is to know when to come but we decided to check out the band before us, watch them play & then head out. In some ways it's really great that these shows at Alchemy are so early when they're on the early side of the bill, that way we can continue on with our evening & the band gets to enjoy the other people there without it being so late.

There's a new sound working for them & it was so epic. The sound in there was incredible. Also I was really amused & thought it was so cool that he had his board hooked up to a tablet so that he could move around. I just thought it was so great & gave the ability to have him hear what sounds were throughout the venue. I think this was the best sounding show that ETPT had ever had in my opinion. I have been to a LOT of their shows, I was trying to figure how many I have been to, I'll have to sit down & actually count to see because I'm sure it probably surpasses most of the bands I've followed. But it was really awesome being able to clearly hear the vocals along with the instruments. 

I'm hopeful, and I know they are too, that they get the 'new' music out into the public released that they recorded last fall. It's pretty much mastered & ready, I think it just needs fine tuning before it gets out to everyone. But it's always cool getting to hear them play it on a stage & live. There's nothing better than that. The energy that these 4 have & the passion they give out to the crowd is amazing being 20 something's. 

It's incredible to hear the original ideas that they have for music come to life & watch them pour out their feelings to an audience is so cool.

They played their set, I gave high 5's & hugs & as my son was breaking down his equipment, he was like so you guys out of here? Well yes, he knows us well but I did still want to say goodbye. It was pretty funny. He wasn't wrong, we were leaving right after but still. The best thing about them playing so early, was that it was still light out when we headed out of the venue & enjoyably went to dinner. 

I'm ready for their next show. I think it'll be really great. They just keep getting better. It makes me such a proud mama, to all of the boys- even if just one of them is biologically mine.