Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Self compassionately flawed

I often focus on the flaws more than the positivity in myself. I am trying to do better to listen to the kind-hearted voice instead.  As much as I want to just see ether good in myself, as I do others, sometimes it's really hard. But really look at all that I have accomplished in the last 5 years that I never in my life thought I could ever do! I am kind and loving and empathetic towards the ones I love and I will make a point to being the same way to myself. I often have gotten so frustrated with my kids and used to quickly turn to yelling and snapping at them instead of patiently listening and I am getting better at this as I have sat back and really listened to them lately. I try to give myself grace and put myself in their shoes. I am a good mother and the way they act to everyone around them reflects that I have done an incredible job raising them. I let the hamster in my head run on its wheel when I need to just let it sleep. I am an amazing woman with a heart that is huge. I love so big with everyone I know. I stress over little things that don't need to be as really, things will work out and that everything will be fine. When I least expect it, some of the coolest things have happened because something didn't work out as planned. I am working on being more patient with myself. I have worked hard to get to where I am. I have a supportive, incredible man in my life. I've got two amazing teenagers who are becoming adults before my eyes. I am working towards a project that came out of a great idea of something I'm passionate about. Life is good. I have a beautiful smile and laugh that radiates from room to room. I have a great sense of humor. I love music and all of the people I've met thanks to the music. My future is bright and beautiful.

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

Another year, more thoughts pouring out

So after being super gung ho with writing, & doing it every single day, I just sort of fizzled with my enthusiasm. It was starting to feel forced and I wanted it not to be. I needed to get back into feeling it be organic and a flow of thought that I enjoy. But it wasn't quite that. So I stepped away for a while and chose to put it on the back burner until I was feeling it. That is just the surge I needed. I have some creative moments seeping in and sorting their way thru me in so many ways and it's exhilarating. I'm so grateful for my mister to support me in every way as I head into an endeavor that is scary and exciting all at once.  In the next couple of months, my son will officially become an adult. And that blows my mind. Eighteen years ago we were just letting people into the thoughts that parenthood was up and coming in my life. And now we're preparing for college and what's to come next after high school. Time is a crazy thing that goes so much faster than I ever thought possible. And just like that, another year has begun and in the blink of an eye, it'll just turn the pages of the calendar...

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Lazily lounging

As I stretch and lay diagonally in my bed, I cozily nuzzle in. At one point, I thought it must be so late, when in reality, again, as I have thought lately, it is not. Crazy how due to it being dark so early, it makes the day seem to stretch less when really not much time has lapsed. I skipped another day of posting by accident. Last night I pulled up the page but then instead of scrawling anything, I just ended up watching the back of my eyelids. No big deal but still I've been trying my best. Someone's that's all we can do.

Monday, December 11, 2017

New technology amuses me

It'll be so nice to be up to date with everything with my new phone I got today. I'm in awe by the nuances of it all. Sometimes it really doesn't take much to amaze me. It's the little things in life. Now I'm sitting in the living room listening to the band rehearsal. It's nifty hearing new ride and chords.

Sunday, December 10, 2017

Relaxation at its finest

I spent a majority of the day in bed. I really need to rotate it at some point so that there's not a high side of where I don't lay. The poor mister kept rolling over due to it. I got some creativity flowing today with a project near and dear to me. One that will launch into bigger and brighter things in this coming year. My mister is supportive and it is absolutely giving me the push to get to it.  I've got motivation, drive, and grand ideas in the works. But for now, I'll just keep laying in bed while the fireworks of excitement burst in my mind.

Saturday, December 9, 2017

Wet white falling from the sky

It has been snowing the entirety of the day. The first snowfall we've had this winter. Which isn't bad considering it's New England and December. I'm just hoping it's not half as bad as it was a couple of winter's ago when we got dumped with 7' throughout it. I think I could live without that ever happening again in my lifetime. It definitely is memorable, that's for sure. But right now, although it's been snowing for so long there's only a few inches that have accumulated, not much more than the mister got as well.  And luckily I've got nowhere else to be beside my warm cozy bed for the rest of the night & into tomorrow that I intend on staying in.

Friday, December 8, 2017

Movie nights, long distance style

I love that my mister and I can make a movie date night work even when we're not together. It makes my heart so happy. We cute it up and then start and watch together. I have caught him up on some of my all-time favorites, it's amazing being able to share this with him even miles away. It's pretty incredible what technology can do. Now it's his turn to start turning me on to some of his loves of movies.