Roller coaster

The mantra of today was that it was going to be a good day. I try to keep the positivity flowing even when it's at it's hardest moment with negativity being slung all about. I stress more than I should about uncertainty while my head spins around in circles. But all in all, I really tried for it to be a good day. Even when there could be glum and tears flowing. Now I lay in bed waiting for sleep to eventually happen with the thoughts that tomorrow will be another good day. Even when it seems like it could be something else, I'm just going to keep thinking these upbeat thoughts.

Eleanor and the Pretty Things

It is the coolest thing to be up in my bedroom and to hear the music drift up from the basement. My son has a 4 piece band that he plays guitar with. My Dad would so love every moment of this. At first I almost regretted saying yes to letting them have my basement be their rehearsal space, yet now I'm so happy that I did. It's amazing hearing their creative process. He is going to need to do some sort of sound proofing. It is loud in my house, but it's not something I'd change for the world.  

What a long strange trip it's been...with stream of consciousness

Four years have flown right by in the flash of a blink of an eye. 
So much has happened in what seems like that short period of time, yet also feels like a lifetime. I have traveled to and from Indiana a few more times with the official ending of vigil that happened back in 2015.  A new resurgence of life with that has now become and although it is different in many ways it is still the essence of everything of why we were all brought together.  Life changed in so many ways for me becoming a single parent.  I have discovered a whole new breath of passions along with a new love.  The kids continue to grow and as I watch them become the people they are, they amaze me every day.  I have one child preparing to be ready to enter into the world as a college student, while the other is finishing up the transition from middle to high school. When this whole season and stage happened in life is beyond me.  I am completely working outside of my comfort zone by just typing out my thoughts instead of carefully constructing them first.  It really is a game changer and so much easier, like a few people I know suggested to me so long ago.  I am hoping that this finding of something I once loved will spark a fuel and get me inspired to keep this up on a constant...