Lazily lounging

As I stretch and lay diagonally in my bed, I cozily nuzzle in. At one point, I thought it must be so late, when in reality, again, as I have thought lately, it is not. Crazy how due to it being dark so early, it makes the day seem to stretch less when really not much time has lapsed. I skipped another day of posting by accident. Last night I pulled up the page but then instead of scrawling anything, I just ended up watching the back of my eyelids. No big deal but still I've been trying my best. Someone's that's all we can do.

New technology amuses me

It'll be so nice to be up to date with everything with my new phone I got today. I'm in awe by the nuances of it all. Sometimes it really doesn't take much to amaze me. It's the little things in life. Now I'm sitting in the living room listening to the band rehearsal. It's nifty hearing new ride and chords.

Relaxation at its finest

I spent a majority of the day in bed. I really need to rotate it at some point so that there's not a high side of where I don't lay. The poor mister kept rolling over due to it. I got some creativity flowing today with a project near and dear to me. One that will launch into bigger and brighter things in this coming year. My mister is supportive and it is absolutely giving me the push to get to it.  I've got motivation, drive, and grand ideas in the works. But for now, I'll just keep laying in bed while the fireworks of excitement burst in my mind.

Wet white falling from the sky

It has been snowing the entirety of the day. The first snowfall we've had this winter. Which isn't bad considering it's New England and December. I'm just hoping it's not half as bad as it was a couple of winter's ago when we got dumped with 7' throughout it. I think I could live without that ever happening again in my lifetime. It definitely is memorable, that's for sure. But right now, although it's been snowing for so long there's only a few inches that have accumulated, not much more than the mister got as well.  And luckily I've got nowhere else to be beside my warm cozy bed for the rest of the night & into tomorrow that I intend on staying in.

Band rehearsals rule on a Thursday night

Someone asked me if I were crazy letting the boys practice in my basement. I of course already know I'm crazy, aren't we all just a bit in our own minds, so that's besides the point. But really, I love hearing all of the moments of their songs coming up the stairs. We definitely should invest in some sort of sound proofing but if it doesn't happen then that's no big deal. Today was one of those days I was feeling deflated after work. How I often have been. I'm grateful for technology to get me to be able to get my spirits up and then them coming to rehearse was just a bonus of pick-me-up.

Surprises are simply the best

My mister lives 474 miles away from me. But that didn't stop him from driving all the way here just to visit with me for the night and some of the morning. He convinced me that he was busy with work and meetings while in reality he was on the road for a majority of the day to get here. It was seriously THE best surprise I've ever gotten. I slept so well and felt so content having him be here. We spent the morning together, went to breakfast & then he headed back on the road. Although it was an extremely short period of time, I don't take those for granted. And I can't stop smiling.

Skipped a day, and that's ok

I was trying to keep up with an unrealistic expectations that I would write every single day for this month. Sometime's life happens though and now I'm forgiving of myself for things to hiccup without too much harshness. I just take when things don't go the way I thought they would with a grain of salt and move forward. It's so much better than beating myself up for things I can't control. And really, a day or two, here and there's nothing wrong with taking a good break from everything.

Baking from a non baker

So my daughter thought it would be fun to throw together a Christmas cookie decorating party tomorrow. So I made cookies, from scratch. Which if you know me, a pretty big deal because although my Grampa was a baker, the gene definitely skipped me. But I can follow a recipe and I went in headstrong & came out with edible cookies. Which is a win win. Plus I had a lot of fun. Good, good times.

Time change makes me sleepy

Having to be up at stupid o'clock ass crack of dawn is never my idea of fun. I have never been a morning person, and after 40 years I've got a good feeling I'm never going to be. With it getting dark so early these days, it feels like it's the middle of the night when reality it's really pretty early. And if I went to bed when my body first were telling me to, I'd be in a vicious cycle of being even more tired than I already am which I don't see being possible.

One of those days

I am trying to keep up with keeping up with this. My mind is a jumbled mix of everything at the moment. Attempting to slow it down as I need to get up way too early for work in the morning...

Roller coaster

The mantra of today was that it was going to be a good day. I try to keep the positivity flowing even when it's at it's hardest moment with negativity being slung all about. I stress more than I should about uncertainty while my head spins around in circles. But all in all, I really tried for it to be a good day. Even when there could be glum and tears flowing. Now I lay in bed waiting for sleep to eventually happen with the thoughts that tomorrow will be another good day. Even when it seems like it could be something else, I'm just going to keep thinking these upbeat thoughts.

Eleanor and the Pretty Things

It is the coolest thing to be up in my bedroom and to hear the music drift up from the basement. My son has a 4 piece band that he plays guitar with. My Dad would so love every moment of this. At first I almost regretted saying yes to letting them have my basement be their rehearsal space, yet now I'm so happy that I did. It's amazing hearing their creative process. He is going to need to do some sort of sound proofing. It is loud in my house, but it's not something I'd change for the world.  

What a long strange trip it's been...with stream of consciousness

Four years have flown right by in the flash of a blink of an eye. 
So much has happened in what seems like that short period of time, yet also feels like a lifetime. I have traveled to and from Indiana a few more times with the official ending of vigil that happened back in 2015.  A new resurgence of life with that has now become and although it is different in many ways it is still the essence of everything of why we were all brought together.  Life changed in so many ways for me becoming a single parent.  I have discovered a whole new breath of passions along with a new love.  The kids continue to grow and as I watch them become the people they are, they amaze me every day.  I have one child preparing to be ready to enter into the world as a college student, while the other is finishing up the transition from middle to high school. When this whole season and stage happened in life is beyond me.  I am completely working outside of my comfort zone by just typing out my thoughts instead of carefully constructing them first.  It really is a game changer and so much easier, like a few people I know suggested to me so long ago.  I am hoping that this finding of something I once loved will spark a fuel and get me inspired to keep this up on a constant...