Love

Love to me is completely unconditional.

It's a beautiful sunrise to sunset in words.

It's good morning darling, did you sleep well? Love is asking if you're hungry physically but also, in your soul.

Love is fully making sure someone feels safe. It's the have fun, drive safe, I care about you deeply feeling that is said and sincere.

Love is a deep conversation in the middle of the night while being surrounded by warmth.

Love is being in the woods along with my tribe of friends who have become family.

Love is captured with gentle touch to genuine passion.

Love is important.

Love is love is love.

It's what keeps us all going. 

Overdose awareness day

I've been slacking with the writing. I'm gonna get back into a rhythm of it again. 

Today is one of those days with a lot of reflection.

I'm not a fan of the hard drugs. It's not ever been my thing. I've always told my kids to stay away from them. And I'm very hopeful that they will. I've seen first hand the ugliness of what they can do. I try to be understanding about addiction but it can be hard from an outsider. I don't want to be judgemental in general but this is something that still bothers me in a way that I'm trying to not though. 

I had this plan of writing up something profound & delving into it but then that energy diverted & it went somewhere else. Now this is about as much as I've got.

Well this seems fitting

 

This truly seems so right with how things have gone in the past few months. You never know when you don't really know someone beyond the persona that they portray. It's the actions that really show their true colors as well.

I'm making peace with all the things I cannot control and I'm absolutely ok with it.

Letting go & completely healing is linear & never quite what you might expect. It's so true too that it might sting harder. But I am coming out from this transformation & transition of everything a bigger person; he will never see what is going to become of me & my happiness

Heavenly birthday wishes

Jay, today would have been your half century birthday & you are so terribly missed. 

What an incredible man that I got to call my brother-in-law for all the years that I did. And although I was no longer married into your family, you still welcomed me as such and it was great to see you when I did. You were an amazing husband, father, son, brother, Uncle and friend who made everyone smile and laugh in your presence. I miss you dearly. 

"If you have love in your heart, let it show." He had so much love in his. 

Cheers to the sky for you tonight, Jay.

 

A couple of days off

It was a lovely busy couple of days. And then I got a little less intrigued with writing. 

My cousin got married. I'm very happy for them.

Yesterday was a day of rest & recuperation.

It's a rainy gloomy day that makes me just want to lounge even though I've got things to get accomplished today. We'll see how much gets done. Caffeine might help. 

Soul quenching day

As I lay my sun kissed (and a little crispy in spots) body down for the evening, I'm feeling so fulfilled along with wiped out from the day in the sun at the beach!

It was such a lovely day filled with delicious food, beverages, breezes, sand and salty water with incredible waves.

I'll just leave the post with pictures from the day to sum up the awesomeness.

Take it all in

Enjoy a simple breeze & contemplate everything.

That's how I'm intending to spend this little moment in time.

The rotation of emotions that can come & go filter in from one moment to the next.

Sometimes all I need is a good belly laugh that makes me snort. Then I listen to some lyrics that hit me differently then I had ever noticed before to make me cry one of those intense bawl to release it all. After then, I pick myself back up, make a good chai along with a delicious meal to head out to just sit.

The routine of sitting out is one that I'm so grateful to continue with. Just to be in this moment.